I guess i'm going to try for something i have less confidence in. but i'll remember that success is when you hit your own target. as long as i have done my best, i know i have won. i have less than 16 days...will i make it in time? the consequences are...if i've succeeded i won't have the same life again...and if i don't...

But i'm taking the Gamble. Alone.

It didn't work...

Courage has lied to me once again.

"They may take our Lives, but they'll never take....OUR FREEDOM!" -- William Wallace.

hi back...ah ma and i didn't go esplanade after all...so happened that she had a knee sprain! so oh well we spent the day together like how we did everyday ten years ago. lunch at 12...milo at 3...she'd drink coffee. Monday i'm bringing my bro to injection hahaha. i injected the anti-flu yesterday at 11.30...u know what happened..the doctor was so TALL! aiyo, i so scared that he will pierce until very deep given his size...but the needle was only 2, 3 cm. but i cannot stand injections...primary 6 was enough k, i tell u! oh yah, wanna boast a bit...Primary 6 right, i was the FIRST GIRL to get the stupid BCG and hehe, i was so brave! i never cried leh! (hahaha, show off...) the stupid skin test also i never cry. but it's very painful the stupid nurse put the stupid needle into the arm...MMR also...

we [my family] went into Malaysia at 2.45pm yesterday and came back at 3am today...the jam was so horrid but i fell asleep as usual. do you know that at Woodlands checkpoint they issue paper thermometers to take ur temperature? yah...i find it quite a waste of money but...ho-hum it's up to the authorities...across the causeway i bought 4 fairy tale books. i remember last time i love these fairy tales...i like romances like Sleeping Beauty, Cinderella that are so innocently beautiful.. and of course Beauty and the Beast! they are so beautiful! and the pictures are always excellent...i wonder where my childhood books have gone....*sigh*

later we'll go church...the 3 of them are still sleeping...still in Dreamland...:D

the NACLI camp arh...can say it's one of the most luxurious camps i've been to. the fire alarm was irritating, but i was panicky because i don't wish to see any lives lost. and one alarm went off when i was bathing...but the fan was on, so i guess it didn't come from mine. then i suggest NACLI could do something about this off and on alarm thingy. ade, aiyo, why u go and put such strange things about me on the web!!! i can MELT now u know...! but the camp was really fulfilling for me and the rest. by the way, we visited the woodlands library thing and got a few laughs there because of the...er...presenters (shhhh!) and i found it quite boring lar, actually. who haven't been to Woodlands Lib!?!? ay, i put on my dress because i was excited what..it's not an everyday thing! the social etiquette thing was very good especially for me because i didn't really know all about the crap....er...i mean, the more profound mannerisms...so i guess it's quite a eye-opener for me. i revised everything the night before the dinner...ahahaha....so lame! but have to lar....i might just forget. oh yes, on the DiNneR right,...hahahahahha! i wanted to air my legs under the table because was feeling perspiry, then later when i put down my legs back again, both shoes were missing!!! i told shuwen and debrah on my left and right that my shoes are missing and lucky they didn't choke. it took like 5 minutes to finally find my shoes...and it was right at the back of my chair. very good, i tell u. lucky the mayor and the principals can't see....if not i kanna expelled ah! ...i think.

hey, this is an important message to all who have read ade's blog:

1) firstly, the napkin i used at SHATEC was of lousy quality. how would i know that it would break?! i could have asked for another one, but i didn't want to because...not because it's embarrassing, but because i don't wan to waste paper. ah.. proper cloth don't give, give tissue quality, still wan to blame me, ade!!!!

2) second: what i did to the chicken was to REMOVE the SKIN. i don't like chicken skin, and so i just removed the skin! and if ade calls it a state of dunno what, then you still haven't seen anything.

3) i expected the bread because i wanted to TEST the waiters-to-be. they didn't notice! so i waited for i think a full 12 minutes. after that, it was time for dessert. everything cleared.

4) i was fine on the real dinner night because....i was so afraid of the MAN and the 2 WOMEN hahaha...!

"Every Song i Sing I'll Sing for You..."

Harlow! Busy lar busy lar...got camp also wat. My apologies to those who everytime come and see the "yawnnn" haha..NACLI was amazing! the place is just as shiok as a hotel haha..but the amount we paid was also shiok. the experience was very fulfilling...i will not go into much detail here. but it's all in my memory, engraved on my heart. GG CAMP- brilliant! but shall not go into much detail too. i've been away from home and the internet seem quite foreign now you know. the feeling is like so unfamiliar. but now i have regained consciousness already. i just went swimming with ade at about 2pm...then i was late by 10 minutes haha sorri lar! then now she very happy because got tan. she mentally ill one. oh yes, last night my brother say i was talking in my sleep...i dunno what i was dreaming about also, but bro said i was saying 'what happened to you...' den mumble...i really can't remember what i was dreaming. if i could remember.., it must be something serious. what happened to who? hmm...sometimes it's so strange..i can dream and know what i'm doing in my dream, but when i wake up everything's gone...the faces of the people i meet is gone, the things i did are gone...if only i can remember it till morning. because i believe in dreams. what can i do to remember dreams?! *desperate* if only the dreams can tell me what to do, and where to go...*sigh*

tomorrow, i think i'll bring my grandma out hahaha...well, reason because...i'm afraid anything might happen...(touch wood).. and i'd like to make sure she is happy now at her age. 65 years old already i think. then, i'll bring my the other grandma out another day. let these great elders enjoy! hehe.. let's see how lar ah. but her leg pain leh....k i gotta make sure she doesn't walk so much. adequate rest.

AIYO! my sunburn so painful! but today not as pain as yesterday. oh ya, hey, today i woke at 12! a long long rest after the camp...and i treated myself to KFC! eeeeee the chicken so oily...dare not eat so much. i dun wan my tan to go away! STAY! and then today i was just thinking about my future....and...i think i know...what i'm going to do later on in life.

"All my bags are packed, i'm ready to go........I'm Leaving on a Jetplane...Don't Know when I'll be Back Again...."