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so forget it?
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you made me vulgar for a day.
how weak are we,
what fucking weaklings.
if i said i didn't care a hoot
i'd be fucking lying.

fuck the chicken chop i was about to eat.
till you decided to let it go.
you've made me hollow again.
how lame that chicken chop's for dinner.
how history repeats.

how funny that things should change.
your wounds wouldn't heal.
my wounds? was I even hurt?
funny how I can't feel the pain.
funny how I cry at not feeling it.

how blessed I am to be hollow.
how wonderful I'm shallow.
it's great that I ain't crying no more,
not because I'm out of tears,
but because I can't and won't.

I congratulate myself for my daze,
Gratefully ran into ignorance's embrace.
I'm a true loser, a true sucker.
Someone unworthy of the world.
Someone unworthy of life.

No apologizes, no backing down.
How unique this situation is...
It's the first time I've done this.
You blew it.
You showed me truth.

Couldn't recognize your words,
Couldn't recognize your tone.
I fail.
You speak.
Silenced.

So lack of security you are,
As lost as you are far.
Never thought it'll come this way.
Time'll heal, they always say
Yet time's still my greatest foe.

He won't help.
He never will.
Up to my neck. As you are too.
Smiling takes thrice the effort now
How pathetic.. I'd rather be down.

No matter how unworthy I am to you,
The least I know who I am and why.
The least I know I have me.
For I asked myself.

Have you?

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